June 29, 2012 Catch up

Dear God,

It's 2am and I'm wide awake. I have no idea why.
I haven't written in way too long! A lot of things have happened and I guess I'm one of those people that like to avoid looking at my life.
Does that even make sense? I know what happens but I'm good at blocking things out and not really thinking about them.
Guy mentioned in curveball is gone. Man, I have learned a lot in a short amount of time. I didn't see all the red flags that were raised by friends and even family. I guess I'm stubborn. When people tell me someone is bad for me, I immediately go into defense mode and accept the challenge. Not that they ever posed one, I just take it as a challenge which is ridiculous!
Looking back, I realize I was a stubborn idiot. Plan and simple.
I'm not afraid to admit that I'm stubborn and dumb sometimes. How else can I grow?
Anyway, he's out of the picture THANK YOU GOD! Whew.
I can finally move on with my life.
I've been nannying a lot, working from 8:30 am to 3 or even 4:30 pm.
Let me tell you, playing with two girls for 7 or 8 hours straight plus handling a dog with way too much energy is hard work. I get home exhausted and don't have energy to do anything besides lounge around and rot my brain.
It's awesome.
I enjoy being busy so I can make money and not sit at home all day. I don't feel guilty for being a vegetable for 24 hours straight. Not that I would do that.... :P
So yeah.
That's me lately.
Beginning of summer. It started weird but things are finally back into groove.
Wow I just said back into groove. I must be exhausted.
This entry wasn't very exciting. I'll work extra hard to be sassy and witty when it's not 2 am and I'm not exhausted, typing with my eyes closed.
Good nig...zz..

Love you,

Amen