July 27, 2012 Take a breather

Dear God,

Wow sorry about my absence. Things have been so busy lately I haven't had time to myself for weeks now. Every single day has been go go go with no time to sit and just breathe or read a book. It's nice that I'm working and making money but at the same time, I want me time, you know?
Today is finally a day off from work (well until 5pm) and I didn't have to wake up before the sun does. THANK GOD! Whew. I got to sleep in...which for me doesn't go past 9:30am anymore which really stinks. I tried to go back to sleep, convinced myself I was exhausted which I was, but my body refused me even when I denied it food and a bathroom break. Guess who won? Well it certainly wasn't my exhausted body.
I always overschedule myself as I'm sure many of us do and we just get so worn out. Why do we do that to ourselves?
I know for me, sometimes I overschedule myself to avoid thinking about something or confronting someone. I work myself hard so I'm distracted during the day and then pass out during the night. But that doesn't make a problem go away. If anything, it just grows bigger.
For once in my life, that wasn't the case. I really was busy because I wanted to help people out so I agree to everything they throw my way. I swear I'm not in denial.
I know a lot of people who are completely overbooked and whenever they get a breather day, they text or call me wanting to talk about a problem they've been avoiding. It happens way more than it should.
I think instead of running from our problem, we should face our problem head on and just deal with it. We're going to have to do it sooner or later right? We can't run forever.
Who wants to live a life in fear? Who wants to look over their shoulder for the rest of their life hoping their probem hasn't caught up to them? Not me!
I don't want to waste the few breather days I have worrying about a problem I should've taken care of a long time ago.
It's not fair. To me or my exhausted body.
Here's to facing problems head on and taking advantage of the few breather days we get.

Love you,

Amen